The guilt

Recently I have started scolding Sparsh once in a while. Sometimes when he ignores my "No", sometimes when he wakes up every 30 minutes at night and sometimes when he hurts me badly while playing. I am completely aware that he is still very small and does not understand scolding but still sometimes I cant help letting the steam out. But the guilt that follows simply kills me :-(...and then I cant stop kissing my little boy as if to erase all the memories of the scolding that he never even understood.

I would have gone mad with guilt, thankfully I read this-

Some mothers are kissing mothers and some are scolding mothers, but it is love just the same, and most mothers kiss and scold together. ~Pearl S. Buck